Censored Loser Porn

Ok a little background, I have always been feminine and played with the girls as a kid, playing what ever they liked:

Eg: Dolls and dress up! (Explains why dressing in girly clothes now is still hot)

Whilst the alpha's were playing football, I was playing kiss chase...

(The one time a beta loser choose the better path!!!)

I also played a lot as one girls dog. She owned me and I had to do as she told me to - including her putting me under her mattress and jumping up and down on top of me... 

We was probably only 10, so we had no idea at the time I was submitting to her and why we both liked me being her dog so much and having to do what she said!  She even gave me a very girly flowery name!

This really explains a lot about how I am now!

Playing with the girls made me more feminine, but it gave me an advantage that I found it easier to talk to women (unlike most losers).

However I still am a Beta Loser and things would go wrong for me a lot of times!

Here is a few examples:

Example 1:

THE PARTY

I finished School forever and a friend tells me to go to a party that I'm not invited too, I don't really want to go, but get talked into it..

A Beta Loser going to an Alpha Party - Uh-Oh this is a disaster waiting to happen!! o.O

So I go... I walk in the door, A girl instantly says to me whilst looking down on me:

"Oh ____ _____ (My full name), what are you doing here?" 

Her words were so brutal and haunt me still today! She obviously saw me as a Beta Loser!!

Later on, standing in the party, some people behind me decide it would be fun to pull my jeans and underwear down whilst I am standing in the middle of a room with so many people around me!!

So there is me standing there with my little clitty out in front of everyone and everyone laughing!! Soooooo humiliating. At the time this was a thing that would have happened in nightmares and being in that situation was so cringeworthy, I bet everyone talked about it for weeks...

but now I look back and think "wow what an experience and so much humiliation that I crave for"

The final straw of the party...

Someone breaks something expensive.... (The next day I found out who it was)

Someone shouts out it was me (The Beta Loser) of course I was the scape goat! 

Tensions get heightened at this point and it is time to leave.....

I get out and instinctively hide on top of a building  and watch Alpha Males run down the road thinking they could catch up with me and then I waited until they returned past and I walked home thinking Wow what an extremely Loser night I had!!

Moral of the story:

Beta Loser just sit at home and jerk your little clittys to porn as it is much safer!

Example 2:

The 3 sum

I was VERY drunk and out of no where a girl who I didn't know came over to me and started kissing me, she was very drunk obviously to be kissing a Beta Loser!

I was thinking wow and how hot it was when suddenly from behind another girl put her arms around me and put her hands inside my jeans.

I started thinking "uh-oh girl kissing me isn't going to like this" but she just carried on and wasn't bothered by it at all! (I guess they knew each other?)

Then out of no where..... I feel that horrible ill feeling...

I turned and pulled away and instantly vomited, luckily we was outside.

Way to go I ruined an amazing time in True Beta Loser style!!

Moral of the story:

No matter how drunk a woman is they should not waste their time with a Beta Loser!

Example 3:

The Blowjob

I worked in a room with about 10 women and in the room next to it there was about 10 more. I was the only "male" working there with lots of women!!

One of the Women I really fancied and I think she liked me but had an ALPHA BULL of a boyfriend, so girly me didn't really have much of a chance...

However one day she asks me if I would like a blowjob, however it has to be there in front of everyone.

I quickly reply "ok"

She kneels down and starts undoing my jeans.....

In True BETA LOSER style I chicken out and pull away to embarrassed to get my clitty out in front of everyone!

She knew I was a beta loser and would chicken out before she would >.<

Moral of the story:

Blowjobs are for ALPHAs not little clitty losers